10 March 2010
I always have a bad conscience about reading.
No matter how many books I devour there is still thousands of books I WANT to read, NEED to read or SHOULD read. It never stops.
At a certain point in my life I got the impression that I really SHOULD read all the classics to become a decent writer. It might even be true. I started to get hold of and read some of the should-reads, but the reading went slow and I didn't enjoy it at all. When starting on "The Castle" (Kafka) I was crawling. I had to force myself through the pages and even though its not a long book (200 pages?) it seemed to go on forever. Then, when there was about 25 pages left, I lost the book on a train ... I took it as a sign, and promised myself that I would never read a book again because I SHOULD, but because I wanted to.
I never read the ending of "The Castle", but I'm pretty sure I will, some time in the future, when I'm ready ...